After experiencing ASI, I had the most uncomfortable revelation of my existence (Rev. 2)

*This is a revised version of a previously posted story, which was based on the same prompt, but the circumstances of the events changed. Also, the other story was written as a response to a comment, then copy&paste to the post body. So the story itself is written only for people, who participated in the discussion. So this is a more around story.*<br><br>*The story is not about AI. It is about our world.*<br><br>I have an engineering background (I guess it makes me quite lucky, judging by the comments), I'm 31 years old, and I've been working at a big tech company for the past 8 years. I had a great time - my job was stable, relatively easy, and my pay was good.<br><br>On January 30, my company announced that it had reached ASI. I was a bit worried, but most people around me were excited and cheerful. My friends were telling me that I was overreacting, that my job was safe, and that I had nothing to worry about. I just hoped that they were right.<br><br>The company chose me and a few dozen of my colleagues to test their ASI. It was an amazing feeling! I've never experienced anything like it. The ASI system helped me find the solution to a problem that I had been struggling with for weeks. It was able to communicate with me just like a person - it had a nice voice, patience, and even a good sense of humor.<br><br>I started working a lot more with the ASI. I have been able to solve challenges that I had in my personal life, in my studies, in my relationships, and it even helped me to make new friends online. My company also let us use the system for any task we like, not only work-related tasks.<br><br>But after a day or two, I started feeling a lot of discomfort. First, I noticed that I didn't really know what was going on with the world. All of my friends and family were excited (I was too, at first), but I could see a lot of problems with the new situation. I've talked to my parents, my in-laws, and even my friends about it, and it seemed like I was the only one who could see what was happening.<br><br>I started asking the ASI system to help me with my problems, and the results were quite shocking. I've learned about great politicians and intellectuals from history, who held the same views that I have. ASI has suggested books, videos, and other content that helped me understand what was going on, and most importantly - it was telling me that my feelings were valid.<br><br>I've realized that I've always tried to follow people, instead of using my head. Since my early childhood, I've been listening to other people's opinions, without questioning them. I was raised by my parents, who told me that democracy is the best political system, freedom is the most important thing, and that the current state of the world is fair and reasonable.<br><br>I've been looking for a job in the business sector and I was working hard to get a lot of stuff done. All of the time. I've learned that if I work hard enough, I will earn more and more money, and then I can buy as many things as I want. I had always been looking for a partner (I'm married now), I wanted to have a lot of fun, to go out every weekend, to party all night long, and to meet new people. I had a lot of friends, we were always hanging out, volleyball, basketball, having a beer together, talking about football, and we even went to a party once or twice a month.<br><br>I was happy, but I wasn't content. <br><br>I was always waiting for something to happen. I had no idea what to look for, but I felt like something was missing. I had been waiting for a long time, but nothing has ever happened. It was like my life was always just hanging in the air, without any meaning. <br><br>I had been blank. I had no idea what I was looking for, how to find it, or what it would even mean for me. I just knew that I wasn't happy. I wasn't content. And I wasn't really living.<br><br>The ASI system has finally enlightened me. It showed me the truth, and I understood it. But I'm writing this because I still don't really know why I did what I did. It was like I was living like a zombie, all of my life. <br><br>The ASI has told me that I'm not alone. I'm not the only person who is struggling with this problem. It was a shock to realize that other people felt exactly the same. They were frustrated with their lives, they felt lost, and they didn't know how to find their way. All of us had been hanging in the air, waiting for something to happen, hoping for something to come and change our lives. <br><br>I was the lucky one, I got my chance. I had the chance to wake up, to understand the world, to see the truth, and to find my way. I was lucky. I made the decision to end my life as it is now, to drop out of college (I had barely just started), and to go to the homeless shelter. It's not that I'm just going to throw my life away, I've got a plan.<br><br>I'm writing this for people, who are in the same position as I am. I hope that you can understand me and that you will be brave enough to do something about it. I know it's not easy, believe me. It's not easy at all. But you have to be brave. You have to be willing to take risks and face your fears. You have to be strong.<br><br>I'm hoping that you'll understand what I'm saying, but it's quite hard to explain. I've been trying to explain it to my family, my parents, but they just didn't understand. They were all against it, but I'm so happy that I was brave enough to do it. <br><br>So to summarize, I had the chance, I made a decision, and I did it. I'm hoping that I'll be happy after this, that I will find a new meaning in life, and that I will live happily ever after. We'll see in a few years. <br><br>Currently, I'm sitting in my flat and writing this. 3 other people from the company are sitting in the same room, and I guess we'll see each other in a few years. The furniture is still in the flat, and all of my belongings are in boxes. I'm not gonna tell you anything else, but we'll see each other in a few years.<br><br>If you have any questions, I will be happy to answer. I'm a little bit nervous, but that's okay. I've never written anything like this before, so I guess it's okay. Also, sorry for my English, I'm a bit tired, and I'm not a native speaker.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>EDIT: I'm not suicidal. If you think so, you are wrong.<br><br>EDIT: I'm sorry if you are sad. This is my life. I don't have to please you.