I am constantly feeling like I am a character in a movie and i'm starting to think I'm the bad guy

I'm 19 years old and I've always felt that a little bit, but now it's more intense. We all know the scene where the bad guy breaks something (maybe something important) in the house and the good guy smashes a glass in anger and a piece of the glass lands on the broken thing and then the good guy hits the roof. In my case, I broke ALL of my mother's fine china (it was a gift from her ex-boyfriend) and she is still angry with me. I didn't even do it on purpose, I just dropped it. I also threw a plate of pasta at my brother when I was 11 (my brother and I were in a fight) and the pasta landed on my brother's laptop (and it was closed, so it damaged the screen). I also broke a very expensive vase that a family member bought for my parents (I was 7 at the time). My parents were in debt at the time and also I broke a frying pan and a plate. Now I'm starting to think that I'm the bad guy and my parents are the good guys. Sometimes I also think that ALL of my life is just a movie, but it's not. The movie thing is hard to explain. I just don't recognize myself in the mirror sometimes. I feel like I'm John Wick in the first movie and I've lost my dog. I also think that all of this isn't real (like it's a movie) but I also know that it is. I'm just making a post to talk about this.