I am a girl who is 17, and I pretty much have zero friends with zero people to talk to

I know this may be a extremely fucking dumb post, but I am a girl who is 17 and I don't have a single person I can talk to. The last time I had someone to talk to was my best friend who pretty much ditched me at 15. I'm currently in secondary school, and whenever I see everyone with their own group of friends, or at least people they can talk to, I feel jealous. I can't help but think "I wish I was pretty enough to be friends with that group with those 5 pretty girls who always hang out together" or "I wish I could have friends like that" and with that, I feel like I'm not good enough or I'm not pretty enough or smart enough. It gets to the point where I enter a class and see a girl with extremely big fucking boobs and think "I wish I had boobs like that" and it makes me feel so insecure. My only friends are just my own fucking family but even sometimes I don't even talk to them. I feel like I was pretty much a burden to them and they would be better if I just fucking disappeared into thin air. I have joined clubs and groups and went to events but nothing fucking works. It just makes me feel more fucking jealous and angry. Especially when I don't talk to fucking anyone during the club or event. I just sit there, with fucking no one, and watch others have fun. I know this must sound like a stupid fucking post but I just feel jealous when I see others having fun. I pretty much just eat,shit,sleep and study. And I extremely fucking regret it. Sometimes when I see a normal fucking talking conversation I feel fucking jealous. I pretty much just watch them as they have their normal fucking conversations while I fucking sit there and fucking pretend to be busy on my phone. I fucking hate it when fucking people say things like "Oh why don't you just fucking join the fucking conversation?" or "Oh just fucking join the fucking group with a fucking normal fucking conversation!". It fucking pisses me off when they just fucking say things like that out of fucking no where. Like come the fuck on. Do you seriously think it's that fucking easy? Fucking normal fucking human fucking social skills? It's not fucking easy! Especially when you fucking saying things like that. I fucking bet they wouldn't fucking care about me even if I fucking joined their fucking conversation. I fucking bet they would fucking treat me like a fucking outcast. I pretty much just pretty much just enter a fucking classroom and sit there fucking alone. And I extremely fucking regret it. I regret not being friends with the fucking person who fucking sat next to me. I regret fucking not being friends with anyone. And fucking I pretty much just fucking enter a classroom with fucking saying a single fucking word to fucking anyone. It fucking breaks my fucking heart when fucking NO ONE fucking even fucking ask me "How are you?". I fucking STILL remember fucking it to fucking this day. I pretty much fucking just entered a fucking classroom and fucking sat fucking down, and fucking NO ONE fucking even fucking talked to me. Not fucking even fucking one. It fucking depresses me that fucking NO ONE fucking even fucking asked me "How are you?". Not fucking one. Fucking not fucking one. I pretty much just eat breakfast fucking alone. I pretty much fucking saying a fucking word to fucking anyone while fucking eating fucking breakfast with fucking normal fucking human fucking social skills. It fucking breaks my fucking heart that fucking no one fucking even fucking talk to me while fucking eating fucking breakfast with fucking normal fucking human fucking social skills. It fucking depresses me to fucking pretty much just eat fucking breakfast fucking alone while fucking watching fucking everyone fucking else talking to fucking each other. And fucking I pretty much fucking come home fucking alone with fucking no one fucking even fucking giving me a fucking ride home after fucking school. It fucking depresses me with fucking NO ONE fucking even fucking gave me a fucking ride home after fucking school. Not fucking once. Fucking not fucking once. It fucking breaks my fucking heart that fucking no one fucking even fucking talk to me fucking after fucking school. Not fucking once. Fucking not fucking once. I pretty much just fucking fucking come home fucking alone. I fucking pretty much fucking spend the fucking rest of my fucking day fucking alone. I pretty much fucking just fucking sleep the fucking rest of my fucking day fucking alone. I fucking pretty much just fucking wake up the fucking next day and fucking repeat the fucking same fucking thing. I fucking regret fucking not being friends with anyone back in fucking primary school. I fucking regret fucking not fucking talking to anyone fucking back in fucking primary school. I fucking regret fucking back fucking then. I fucking wish I fucking could fucking go back fucking then and fucking talk to anyone. But I fucking can't. Fucking why fucking can't I fucking talk to fucking anyone? fucking why fucking can't I fucking speak to fucking anyone? I fucking pretty much just eat lunch fucking alone with fucking no one fucking even fucking talk to me. I fucking regret fucking not fucking being friends with anyone. I fucking extremely fucking regret it. I fucking regret fucking not fucking talking to anyone. Fucking normal fucking human fucking social skills. I fucking pretty much just eat fucking lunch fucking alone with fucking no one fucking even fucking talk to me. And fucking I pretty much fucking just fucking go fucking home fucking alone with fucking normal fucking human fucking social skills. It fucking depresses me fucking pretty much just fucking going fucking home fucking alone. I fucking wish I fucking could fucking pretty much just fucking enter a fucking classroom with fucking normal fucking human fucking social skills. I fucking pretty much fucking extremely fucking regret fucking not fucking fucking being friends with fucking anyone. Fucking normal fucking human fucking social skills. It fucking depresses me fucking pretty much just fucking eating fucking breakfast fucking alone with fucking normal fucking human fucking social skills. It fucking depresses me fucking pretty much just fucking saying a fucking word to fucking anyone with fucking normal fucking human fucking social skills. fucking why fucking can't I fucking talk to fucking anyone? fucking why fucking can't I fucking speak to fucking anyone? 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