I want to die

I’ve been fighting the desire for death for as long as I can remember. I’ve never had any love for life. It’s painful and exhausting. I feel so much sadness and I’m tired of feeling lonely.<br><br>I hate this life. I want to die, but I’m scared of death. I wish I could be strong enough to kill myself, but I’m not.<br><br>I can’t believe how much I hate my life. It should be different than this, but I don’t know how to make it different.<br><br>I want to die, but I can’t.