Stop letting those “friend zone” people in your life, it is your survival that matters.

Hi. I am 37 years old. I used to have a gf, a few years ago she dumped me. I was in love with her. It took me around two years to understand that she didn’t want to be with me. I am not a good looking dude. I have a huge amount of lbs and my gf, she was much better looking than me. The only thing I can say is that she married a dude that is a little more good looking in other words thinner and taller than me. Yeah, well, you know how it feels. <br><br>I fell for someone else pretty fast. She was much more attractive than me. She was a smoker. I hated smokers. I hated being around smokers. But I loved her. I loved her so much. I loved her so much that I was willing to look the other way and I did. I am not a smoker. It just repulses me. <br><br>She smoked everyday. Mostly weed. She was smoking weed everyday. You may have a different view but I am just going to say, I don’t like people that are smoking weed everyday. She also snorted coke. I don’t really have an opinion on that. I just know that it was very hard for me. <br><br>I am going to say one thing. Be aware of yourself and your body. She changed my life. She changed my diet. She made me eat a lot of calories. I am much much much fatter now. I also am not as healthy as I used to be. I discovered that I have high blood pressure. She also made a change in my mental health. She always said, “if you loved me, you would do this and that and that and that”. <br><br>I really love her. I am so in love with her. I want to love her even more. But she doesn’t love me. I wish I could make a wish and she would love me but she doesn’t. It’s my life, it’s my body. I am the one that needs to take care of it. She can do whatever she wants to her body. I am the one that needs to take care of my body. <br><br>If you are smoking everyday, stop. Stop your addiction. If you are a smoker, stop. If you love heroin, you are addicted to heroin, stop. It is your survival that matters. If you are addicted to something, go and get help. It is not worth it. You are your most valuable resource. Your survival depends on you. <br><br>I love smoking hot chicks. I can do nothing about it. I am a man. I am not a cool dude. I am not a cool dude. I am a dude that loves women. She does not love me. I need to get over it. It is okay. It is okay. You are okay. You can do it. You have done nothing wrong. Just move on. You are in a toxic relationship. If you are addicted to something, you are addicted to something. If you are addicted to someone, you are addicted to someone. It is okay. It is okay. It is okay. <br><br>You are okay. You are okay. You are okay. You can just move on. You can just move on. You can just go. It is okay. You are okay. You are okay. You are okay. You are okay.