I wish I’d never started smoking weed

I wish I’d never started smoking weed. I just wish I’d never touched it with a ten-foot pole and that I never discovered it. I found weed to be the worst substance ever. I was the highest-functioning, most juxtaposed stoner you will ever meet. I had a great career, I had 2 babies, I had a great home, I didn’t drive and smoke, I had no bad relationships, I never smoked dirty weed, I had a great, supportive family, I was in control of my weed smoking, and the list goes on. <br><br>In 2019, I smoked a joint while I was on 100mg of mirtazapine and 60mg of Cymbalta. I did this for two years. Not once did I high. At first the weed made me feel better, but then it just juxtaposed my mental health. I gradually started with one joint and went to 4 hitting it every few minutes in 2021. I ended up having a psychotic break. I thought that I was in a severe depression and that the weed helped my depression. In reality, the weed made my depression 10 times worse. I was not able to function. I had severe psychosis and started hearing things. I couldn’t sleep , didn’t care about my hygiene, and I lost my appetite. I was in a very dark place. <br><br>I then went to my doctor and changed my meds and stopped smoking the weed. I also started therapy. My doctor started me on Haldol, Depakote, and gabapentin. I ended up going on an ECT treatment. After that treatment, I felt like a totally new person. I didn’t worry about anything. My anxiety was gone for a few months. I used to take 100mg of Ativan a day and now I only take 5mg with 2 Benadryl. I still don’t smoke weed. I found weed to be super super super bad for my mental health.