9 grams of xanax at once. Worst 3 days of my life.

9 (2mg) pills. I'm 17(m) 5'9 130 lbs. I took my first pill around 10am and it hit me very fast, after 30 minutes I had taken 4 more with no knowledge of it. I was so drowsy and out of it and the next thing I know I'm in my bed with no recollection of how I got there. My family and I think I might have taken 5 more pills. All in all we think it was 9 pills. I don't really remember anything but my family said I become violent and started hitting things and grabbing things aggressively and just started ripping everything apart. Luckily my mom and dad were able to hold me down and get me in the car and to the ER. I don't remember any of that but all I remember is being in the hospital bed. I remember the beeping noises from the heart monitor and the doctor asking me some questions and I don't remember what I said but I'm pretty sure it didn't make sense. I was there for 2 days just sleeping and only remembering short instances of what happened. After being released from the hospital I still remember little to nothing. My family said I was very out of it and couldn't walk properly and all in all was just a mess. After that I don't really remember anything except for right now. I'm at home and it's 5pm and I have no clue what day it is or anything. This was the first time I've ever taken a xanax pill and I most certainly don't ever want to feel like that again. <br><br>EDIT: I know nobody will believe me but I do have a prescription to xanax. I forgot to mention the reason why I took them. I was having a panic attack and I took one and it hit me very fast and I got very drowsy. I don't remember taking the rest. I do have an addiction to xanax but I'm getting treatment for it.