I want to die

I'm sorry for this post but I'm not sure where else to go. I feel like I got the worst hand in life. I’m autistic, so I struggle to socialize, I have epilepsy, so I’m alone and scared because I never know if my family will find me dead in the morning. I got diagnosed with bpd and adhd last week and I’m just not sure how much more I can take. I hate my life, I’m tired of being alone. Tired of being rejected, so deeply afraid that this will be my life forever. I don’t know what to do and I just I don’t want to be here anymore.