Living as a silent girl, what is your advice to me? (18f)

Every day I ask myself "What's the point?"<br>You're born, you grow up, you get a job, you get married, you grow old, and you die.<br>I want my days to be meaningful, I want to do something that leaves a mark on this planet, something that will not make me just a grain of sand in the desert.<br><br>I want to laugh, to dance, to tell my story to someone who is silent like me, to walk in the forest without any noise made by me other than the sound of the leaves being crushed when I step on them.<br><br>I want to do something that will change the world, to silent people like me, to make them talk, to make them feel something through my touch, to do something that will make them learn to feel in the world that has gone deaf.<br><br>I want to run away, to go to a place where everyone can be silent. <br>To go to a place where everyone believes that silence is beauty too.<br>To go to a place where noise is not the only thing that matters.