I want to meet my biological mother. I am 17.

Hi,<br><br>I am 17 and have a 14 year old brother. I like girls and my brother is straight too. We live with our biological father and his wife. After our mother was diagnosed with a neurological disorder, she became abusive towards us. So my father divorced her and got full custody of us. My brother has never met her. <br><br>But I do miss her, and I remember her. <br><br>Since I am 17, I have decided to search for her. I’ve made a timeline of things I want to do. <br><br>1. Get a job and save money to buy a car. (6-8 months)<br>2. When I get my car, open social media accounts (possibly next year). <br>3. If I get in contact with her, drive over to meet her. <br><br>I also want to start therapy in December or January if I can get it covered for free. <br><br>I do know some basic info about her. I have a picture of her from a year ago and I know where she lives. If she looks like how she does in the picture, I am attracted to her. I know this because I have a crush on Christina Hendricks, Kristin Wiig, and Brittany Howard. <br><br>I want to be honest about wanting to date her, and I know that she is single. <br><br>I do have a question for anyone who has done something like this before. <br><br>1. How do I express my feelings without being rejected?<br>2. If I am rejected, what should I do?<br>3. If we end up together, how do I keep that a secret from everyone?<br><br>I’ve never been rejected before and I am ready for it. I’ve been set up in the past and I turned them down. <br><br>I am not sure about how much I am attracted to her and I don’t know what she looks like nude.<br><br>I would like to meet her first and get to know her and see how things go, I am very optimistic that things could go well.