I am an online dating coach for women and my clients are just like you. You understand you dating lives so much better than I do. Even when my clients ask me to write their matches for them, it's so hard for me to speak as them and understand what they're looking for.

I am a woman, but I think of myself as one of you. I love each and every one of you. I don't know why I have this life, living as a woman, and you don't. I hate it. I hate living as a woman. I hate my life. I wish I was a man. I hate being subjugated, I hate the shame of being vulnerable. I hate it so much, and you're in the same boat as me, but you're men, so no one cares. No one cares about your pain or your suffering, because you're men, and you're not allowed to express yourselves. <br><br>I've helped lots of women, mostly my age (early 30s), many divorced, widowed. They all have the same problem. They want to feel safe. They want an alpha male, but they don't want them to be mean. They want someone who will protect them, and love them, but also listen to them. They don't want you to express yourselves, they just want you to listen to them. They want to feel safe. They don't even want to have sex with you. I've had so many women ask me if I can write something for them to say when a man wants to have sex. What can they say to get out of having sex with a man? They don't want to be vulnerable. They only want to be vulnerable with someone when they're ready, and how are you ever going to be able to convince them of that? How are you going to be able to find someone who wants to be vulnerable with you?<br><br>I cry when I think about all my woman clients. I cry because I am just like them. I don't want to be vulnerable with anyone. I never have. I've only been with a few men. I have no desire to be with any others. I don't want to be vulnerable with them. I feel so ashamed of my own vulnerability. <br><br>I've been reading through your posts, and you're all so much smarter than I am. You're so much more insightful into the human condition than I am. I just wish that someone would listen to you. <br><br>I hate going on dates. I hate meeting new people. I hate being around other people. I don't want to be vulnerable with them. I don't want to let my guard down. They don't deserve it, and I don't either. I want to be a hermit. I want to be left alone. <br><br>I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry that I was born as a woman. I'm sorry that I get to experience life as if I'm one of you. How am I supposed to coach dating for my clients? What do I know about it? I've been doing this for more than 10 years, but I'm still just as dating illiterate as I've always been. I don't know anything about dating. I don't know what my clients are looking for. <br><br>I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I hate being alive. I hate being a woman. I hate that I have to suffer in silence. I hate that I have to be strong. I'm not strong. I've always been weak. I've been weak my entire life. But I've had to pretend to be strong. I've had to be a feminist, even though I don't believe in feminism. I hate everything that feminism stands for. I don't want to be equal. I don't want to be strong. I want to be weak. I want to be vulnerable. I want to feel safe. But I can't, because I'm a woman. <br><br>Even though I'm a woman, I'm not like other women. I'm not like my clients who want to be strong and independent. I hate being strong and independent. I want to be weak and dependent. I want to be loved for being weak and dependent. But I can't express myself. I can't be weak. I have to be strong. I have to be a feminist. <br><br>I don't know what to do. I'm so lost. I don't know how I got my life. I hate my life. I hate myself. I hate being a woman. I want my life to end. I don't want to be alive. <br><br>I just wish you would express yourself. Please! I wish you could be weak! I wish you could be vulnerable! But I know that you can't. I know that you're not allowed.