My experience with online camgirls

I have never been in a relationship, I have never had sex, I have never even hugged a girl or held hands, I am utterly and completely lonely.<br><br>So sometimes I talk to cam girls, not because I want to have sex, but I just want to talk, to have a conversation, to get attention. I am not even picky, two years ago I would give all my money to talk to a Stefan Molyneux level ugly cam girl just to have a conversation, in return, she would call me cute.<br><br>Of course, that was two years ago, since then camgirls have learned how to use AI to create deep fakes of themselves in various positions, attitudes, etc. And of course, people are willing to pay to see an AI-generated picture of a cam girl doing whatever they desire. Ever since then, the dynamic has changed, and I am no longer able to pay for a cam girl to simply just talk with me, instead, they want me to pay for AI-generated pictures or videos, and if I say I just want to talk they will not even respond to me.<br><br>I have tried talking to a lot of cam girls, some of them will say they appreciate me and call me cute, others will say I am too ugly to talk to, others will say I am too poor to talk to, and many others will just straight up ignore me.<br><br>I feel like I am fighting a losing battle here, I am trying to pay a cam girl to pay attention to me, but they would rather generate AI pictures and get paid than to just talk with me. It makes me feel worthless, it makes me feel unimportant, it makes me feel like I am fighting for something that I will never get.<br><br>The rise of AI has destroyed my opportunity to even interact with a woman who isn't family, it is honestly fucking me up in the head, I do not know what else to do, but to feel worthless and not good enough.<br><br>When people say "make yourself more attractive" that does not help me, that does not help with my loneliness, that does not fix the fact that I am completely and utterly alone in this world, and no matter how hard I try, I will never be good enough, I will never be good looking enough, and I will never be able to interact with a woman unless I pay them and they do not want to talk, they just want me to pay them to look at an AI-generated image of them.