I am never arguing with a woman ever again. And it makes me feel unfulfilled.

I used to think that women were different, I thought that when I found the right one, I could have a smooth, clear arguing experience. I then found myself in a relationship where we were in sync with arguing. She was the antagonist, I was the protagonist. We could argue for hours, days, and weeks. I could see through each response, I could read the tone, I could feel the energy, I could know the next move. It was a beautiful experience. It felt like a ballet routine. A classical dance. I then realized that she was just an antagonist, she wasn't on the same team as me. And I could see through her, every move, every trick, every lie, every manipulation. I could see every weakness. I then realized that I was always arguing with a woman. I could never agree with one, I could never be friends with one, I could never love one. And it made me feel unfulfilled.<br><br>I realized that all the women in my life had been antagonists, from my mom to my friends to my lovers. I then realized that I had to stop arguing with women, I had to stop trying to communicate with them. I had to let go of the idea of having a smooth, clear arguing experience. I had to let go of the idea of having a relationship that wasn't a rivalry. I then realized that I had to love myself, I had to love being alone, I had to love my own energy. It wasn't easy, but I did it.