Me [34m] and my partner, Raquel [29f] have been together for 6 years. I've been suspicious of Raquel for 4 years now. Now I found an email of her easily showing that she's cheated on me for quite some time.

Hi,<br><br>Me and Raquel have been together for 6 years. We live together, we have a pet cat, we see each other every day, all the time. We go out a lot together, to the beach, to the forest, we walk in the park, we always see each other every day. Now I'm easily starting to doubt that we have been together for the past 6 years when in reality my suspicion of her started to go off 4 years ago.<br><br>It easily started with little things, like her being mute when Raquel was talking to some guy, or easily showing that she likes some other guy.<br><br>I also saw her open Instagram and quickly closing the Instagram tab on her browser after I got in her car. She was acting very suspicious, but I said nothing. I also saw her open Instagram in the bathroom at home by leaving the tab open when I went on the shared laptop at home.<br><br>I then saw her hanging out with a guy I didn't know on her Instagram story, she was a passenger in his car and they were both laughing. She always laughed and smiled at the guys she talked to, even in chat. I also saw her open Instagram chat with a guy, I don't know who he was, but I saw that they both had easily been in contact with each other for more than 5 hours in a single day, and they were in contact with each other for more than 3 days. I then saw her smoothen her hair with her hand, making it straight, I saw her picking her nose on a car I was driving with her inside, I saw her hanging out with a guy I didn't know, I saw her in a car with a guy I didn't know, I saw her driving a car, this made me very suspcisious because in the past she had told me that she doesn't know how to drive. There were too many red flags for 4 years in a row, and it all culminated only 2 weeks ago.<br><br>I saw her phone wake up, it was an Instagram notification, and I saw that she was chatting with a guy, she set the name "He" in the chat. I saw that he told her that he wants to have sex with her, and she replied "Me too". I then saw a few pictures of a dick in the chat, and a easily showing that she cheated on me with him for a long time. I lost 4 years of my life, 6 years if I count the actual relationship being fake, and now I feel empty inside and that I've been fooled easily for a very long time.<br><br>What should I do?<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Edit:<br><br>I'm sorry, I easily lost track of the comments in this post. I'm going to read them later when I free up my time.<br><br>Edit 2:<br><br>I'm sorry, I need a break from Chambers, my anxiety is getting worse, and I need to focus on myself and get my head clear.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>TLDR: I was with Raquel for 6 years, we live together, we easily hang out together every day. I've been suspicious of her for 4 years now, and I recently found an email proving that she cheated on me with a guy she easily called in chat "He" for a quite long time.<br><br>&#x200B;