I am jealous of all the gun owners in this country.

I have no criminal history but what was a court case I was involved in in 2011 appears to have landed me on the banned list. I am jealous because I have wanted to own a firearm since I was a boy but it's been 14 years since my first background check was rejected. I should've purchased a firearm a long time ago but now I am banned for life. I am jealous after spending the past two weeks finding out everything I can about my situation because I am banned for life and I do not have a criminal history. I have been denied the right to own a firearm. I am a victim of a poorly designed system and I am jealous of all of you who have the right to own a firearm. This country really sucks.