I am a long time Meth addict, I have been sober for a couple days now, not sure how to feel about my recovery

Throwaway Account. I have been an addict for 10 years now. I am 28 years old. I have been anythign from a functional addict to a full blown junkie, albeit I have been clean from Meth for a couple of days now. It is odd to say but I have never been this way. I have walked out of rehabs or just stopped using it and I couldnt last more than two weeks without going back to it. <br><br>I have been feeling extreme anxiety and I dont know if it is withdrawal or me getting off the drugs. I have been sober from Meth for 7 days now. I have been smoking weed to deal with my anxiety. I hope it doesnt fuck me up. But I feel a little better. I just want to get through this and not have to fall back into my addiction. I want to feel good for the first time in my life. I went through so much and I am not done yet. I am hoping that one day I can not need drugs to function.