I [21M] totally friendzoned my friend [27M] that I secretly like

Hi guys, I need a male perspective on this. I'm not sure how anonymous this is, but I'll do my best.<br><br><br>So I (21M) was out in a bar with a guy I've been friends with for a year and a half. We made plans with about 6 other people to go out. I've liked him for a while now but obviously never said anything about it. I assumed he wasn't gay but I definitely felt a certain amount of unsafe space around him to explore my sexuality. He's a great guy and I've made it clear how much I care about him as a friend. Anyway, all of us were getting too drunk and they decided to leave, which left just the 2 of us.<br><br><br>He started talking about how this was his birthday. I didn't even know it was his birthday. I felt like a terrible friend, but he told me it was okay. He was very depressed when I met him, and I think I helped him out. He told me everything was okay and I didn't need to worry. I started dancing and drinking and then all of a sudden I heard this voice. When I turned around, it was a girl I had sex with for a few weeks. I felt really weird and confused, and in an effort to escape her I started talking to a random guy. I think he sensed I was uncomfortable and was trying to help me. She was constantly approaching us and I was worried she was going to think we were dating, which I absolutely did not want. I finally decided to just get away from it all and left to get food. I told him to come with me, and I'm glad he did. We were still drunk but he was okay and a lot more sober than me. He saw the look on my face and went with it. We went and got food and it was a totally comfortable night. I'm so glad he linked up with me.<br><br><br>We stayed up all night and he helped me out a lot. It was absolutely amazing. I never felt so safe or at ease. I just feel so grateful to have him around as a friend. I'm glad we've been friends. I would do anything for him. I'm not sure what I'd do if we weren't friends. I told him after that if we ever weren't friends, he could come live with me. I really mean that. I'd do anything for him. He told me I'm the strongest, kindest person he's ever met. I really think I can get over my biass and see outside of myself if I put myself second to him. That thought just brings me joy. I'd do anything in the world for him. I'm not sure if he knows how serious I am about that, and im not sure if I'd ever be able to tell him. But I know that's true and I'd do anything for him. The thought of me being around him makes me happy. I'm constantly selfish and care about my own well-being, but the idea of putting him above myself is so fulfilling. I feel so different around him, and I just want to be around him forever. I'm not sure if I'm just drunk on my own feelings or cruising for a bruising but I'll accept that fate. I'll be there for him till the day I die. I don't give a shit about myself. I'll be there for him forever. I've never felt so fulfilled and I know that's the path I'll take from here on out. What's this feeling?