I (F26) told him I was pregnant and he (M48) told me he was married.

Throwaway because I'm still pruning my social media and I don't I want my friends and family to know I'm a dumbass.<br><br>I knew he was a lot older than me, he told me he was 38 but I Googled his name and address and found his real age was 48. It didn't matter to me, age is just a number, and he didn't look his age at all. But he did look way older than me, and I realize now how inappropriate the whole thing was.<br><br>Also I knew he was wealthy and I knew the house he said he shared with his sister was actually just his own house. I could tell by the way he walked through the home that he lived there. But I thought that was also okay, people don't owe me the truth.<br><br>But I didn't know he was married. When he first messaged me, I looked at his profile and it said he was single. And I checked his profile again well into our talking, and it still said he was single. I also checked his profile after he blocked me and the single thing is still there, so I don't know what the hell to believe.<br><br>We met on Bumble and we talked for two months before meeting up. I was excited to see him and I wish I could tell you that I was shocked by how different he looked in person, but that's not true. He looked exactly like his pics. I was just... disappointed. I don't know. I thought there would be more of a spark or I don't know, something. But I was already there and I'd been wanting to do something with a man for a while and we already made the hotel reservation and I just... did it.<br><br>I didn't expect to see him again after the first time but he was very persistent. He was willing to do whatever it took to keep seeing me and I took advantage of that. I told him I wanted $500 each time I saw him and he didn't hesitate. He sounded almost happy to be paying me for my body, to be paying for my time. And I took the money, I didn't report it, and now I feel guilty.<br><br>I feel guilty because I knew I was doing something wrong. When he told me I was beautiful and I deserved to be spoiled, that he wanted to spoil me, and I took him up on his offer, I knew I was taking advantage of him. But I didn't care. I never cared about him, I cared about how much money I could get out of him. And now I feel guilty.<br><br>When he called me racist for asking him if he was Mexican, I should have ended it. When he called me stupid for saying every woman's first baby is a girl, I should have ended it. When I found out he had no idea who Taylor Swift was, I should have ended it. But I didn't. I took the money and I took the groceries and the_following and I took the attention and the spoiled feeling and now I feel sick.<br><br>Now I'm sick to my stomach because I'm pregnant with his baby. It's been over a month since we met up and I just found out yesterday. I took a test in the morning and I got a negative result but I thought, well I'm never normally late, and I took another test at night and it was positive. I cried.<br><br>Today I told him I was pregnant and he told me he was married. And that the child I'm carrying was not his, and to stop trying to trap him. I was shocked, I didn't even know what to say. I did say it was too late now, because I already was pregnant with his child. But I don't think he believed me. I don't think he'll ever believe me.<br><br>I feel ashamed. I know that I was just a dumb little girl who took advantage of a wealthy man. But he was a wealthy 48-year-old man who was taking advantage of a young girl. So I'm not entirely to blame. Right? Right?<br><br>I don't know what I am going to do. I don't know if I'm going to keep the baby.