I don't like modeling. I don't like dancing. One of my best friends is a model while the other is a stripper. Why am I jealous?

I have no idea. I never thought I'd be jealous of my friends. I'm just jealous of them. When they are having fun, I'm sad and I feel left out. I get invited to parties, I get invited to go out, I get invited to go to the studio, I get invited to parties.<br><br>I get invited all the time; but none of them invite me to go to the park, the beach, or a movie night. I'm jealous of them because they have fun. They have more fun than me.<br><br>I'm jealous of my best friend because the attention he gets from modelling is insane. He gets invited to all the best parties. I don't get invited to any, not anymore. He's better than me. He looks better, he's more famous and he's just better. He is. I'm jealous because I want to be him but I can't, that's why I hate him. He's too good looking. I'm jealous of his success in modeling.<br><br>I'm jealous of my other best friend. She's a stripper. She looks good. She's smart. She gets invited to all the best parties, just like him. I don't get invited to any, not anymore. She's better than me. She's more fun and she's always having fun. She gets to have more fun than me. She gets attention from men. I don't get any attention anymore.<br><br>I don't like modeling or dancing. I'm jealous of my best friends because they get to have fun. They are better than me. I'm jealous of them. I don't like modeling or dancing, they do. Why am I jealous of them? I feel left out and I want to be them.<br><br>I'm a villain for no reason. I want the attention. Why them and not me? I'm jealous of them for no reason. I hate modeling and dancing. I hate them. I want to be them but I don't want to do what they do. I want attention.<br><br>I'm jealous because I cannot let them go, but I hate them for stealing my fun. I hate them because I'm jealous of them. I don't want to, but I am jealous of my best friends. Why? I don't know.<br><br>I'm jealous of my best friends. I'm jealous of them because they have fun.<br><br>Edit: I'm a woman. I'm jealous of my best friends because they get to have fun and I don't. I want them to fail but I don't want to fail myself. I don't like modeling or dancing. I want to have fun but I'm jealous of them. I'm jealous because I don't want to fail myself while I want them to fail.<br><br>Edit 2: Thank you for the comments. I have read your comments and I hear you. You are right. Why should I be jealous of them? Why should I want them to fail? They are my best friends and I want them to fail? I want them to fail because I'm jealous of them. I want to be them. I want to be them because they are better than me. They have fun and I don't.<br><br>I don't want to let go of them. I want them around me. I want to keep them around me, I don't want to let them go. I want to be them but I don't want to let them go. I want them to stay around me. I want them to stay around me because I love them. I don't want to let them go because I love them.<br><br>I don't want them to fail. I want them to succeed. I want them to stay around me. I want them to keep around me. I want to be them but I love them.