My wife "baby-trapped" me

I put baby-trap in quotation marks because I'm not sure what she did is the actual definition of baby trap, she didn't have a kid to make me stay, just against my will.<br><br>So my wife (32F) and I (34M) have been together for eight years. We have a little girl (5F) and a baby boy (2M). I love both of them more than anything and I finally feel like I have everything. A beautiful wife, two healthy kids, a great career, and a big house. The token "American Dream", minus the dog, I'm allergic. <br>When we talked about kids before, my wife always said she wanted two. I only wanted one, it would be easier and we'd have more money for vacations and stuff, but my wife maintained it's important for a child to have a sibling. I grew up with four and my wife with none, so I guess I understand where she's coming from. <br><br>After our son and getting through the baby years and sleepless nights for the second time, I didn't want to ever go through that again. Both kids were very fussy and colicky. But when he was a year old, my wife began casually mentioning a third. I would laugh it off but senses she was serious. I told her no, I didn't want three and it would be hard with my job (I travel a lot for work). She said we should because she wanted our youngest two to be closer in age like the two younger kids I had as a child. I again said no and that was that.<br><br>She would sometimes bring it up but I thought it was just her joking. I had the conversation with her about me getting a vasectomy and she told me not to, so I didn't. I trust her with all my heart and thought she was on the same page.<br><br>Well, last May I came home from a trip and she looked different. Usually after trips I notice she's frizzy and stressed out with the kids but this time she looked calm, relaxed, and had a smile on her face. I asked if everything was okay and she said yes, she just had a good day with the kids. I thought nothing of it. I did notice she was cooking a lot and gaining a little weight but attributed it to the quarantine. <br><br>One day I was talking to her about work and she said she was stressed out about PPE and COVID and that maybe she should take a break from work. I was shocked, my wife LOVES her high-paying job as a CRNA. Looking back I should have figured it out but I was too blind to. <br><br>Three months later she admitted to me that she was pregnant. She was already 3 months along. She confessed she had a PNG (pregnancy of unknown origin, I just learned this is what they call it), she didn't know who the father was. I joked it was probably mine and we laughed but I was positively sure it was mine since we never had sex issues. <br><br>She ended up having the baby 5 months later. I didn't even notice a bump for a while because she was working from home and always wearing baggy clothes. She gave birth to a healthy baby girl. I was angry and a little disgusted at first but once I held that little baby in my arms I was in love. <br><br>I had the paternity test and the little girl was mine. I still can't believe I have three kids now. It took me some time but I'm starting to get used to the idea. My wife is starting to go back to work now the baby is 3 months old. <br><br>Here's the problem: she knew she was pregnant for the entire length of the pregnancy. She got a positive test at 2 weeks and kept it a secret from me. She confessed she had symptoms but lied to me about why she was sick. She went to the doctor and got a dating ultrasound, which is why she knew she was 5 months along when she told me. I was not happy about this and said she should have told me but she said she was scared I would make her get an abortion. Honestly I probably would have, but I'm glad I didn't because I love having my baby girl. <br><br>What do I do? I feel like she betrayed me and lied to me the whole time but I'm also glad I have a baby girl. Should I let it go or go for couples counseling? I still love my wife so much but it doesn't feel right what she did. <br><br>**TL;DR:** I have 3 kids. I only wanted two. My wife knew she was pregnant for 9 months without telling me she was pregnant. I'm conflicted on whether to let it go or not.