I did not sign up for polygamy, and certainly not with my wife.

I'm a 39 year old man and my (ex)wife is 38. <br><br>Getting straight to the point, when we were younger we had a varied relationship, we had good times and bad times. I forgave her for many horrible things, and I even forgave her for cheating on me with 2 men. We were married for 18 years. <br><br>I never expected her to spend all her time with our son. He has special needs. I don't mind spending time with my son either, but I didn't expect my wife to basically make him her whole life, I thought she would have time for me as well. I love my son very much but I did not ask to be ignored. I did not ask for my needs to be swept away like nothing. <br><br>She never had time for me, she never even looked at me. <br>I felt completely alone and ignored, like my own presence didn't even register to her. I begged her to change this, to spend time with me. She never did. <br>I wasn't a husband to her, I was nothing more than a sperm donor. <br><br>I am a highly educated man and I earn a lot, but money is just money. <br><br>And this week, she admitted to me that she has been having an affair with a married man since Jan of this year. She told me that she was sorry, but that she needed to be with a man, you know, a man in the way that a woman needs a real man to be happy. She told me that it was my fault, that I did not do enough for her, that I should have noticed her needs since I am her husband and I should do everything for her as she is my wife, and that she expects everything from me but I never gave her anything. <br><br>But she said that even if I had given her the world, she still would have cheated because "women need variety". <br><br>I was stunned. I could not respond. I was hurt beyond anything. I felt worthless and stupid. I don't know what kind of variety she is talking about, but I am a good man and I always took care of myself. I am better than her lover. I never expected her to cheat on me just because I am her husband. <br><br>Yeah it hurts bad when I think that she is fucking another man. Yeah I feel betrayed. I am not stupid though, I know I am better off without her cheating ass. She is a terrible woman who has no loyalty. I even thought about violence, but that's for her lover. <br><br>The thing that really hurt me is that it is in a woman's nature to seek out many men and be with them, and they can't be satisfied with just one man. It hurts bad. I am nothing but just another man to her. I don't matter. I even question whether my son is my kid because there is no way to know. <br><br>I am about to turn 40 and my life is basically over with nothing to show for it. I don't want to play the dating game again. I did that for 10 years before we were married and got tired of stupid games women play. I don't want to play any more, and women have not changed. I don't trust any woman and I will never trust anyone again. I hate the dating game and I hate women and their stupid games. <br><br>I will spend the rest of my life alone, with my son. I don't expect anything from women anymore. I don't have any hopes or dreams. I am just tired of everything. <br><br>This is it. This is the end.