I finally got to experience that fabled " porn isn't even enjoyable" feeling

a couple months ago I got depressed and stopped doing every hobby i had and just worked on developing myself, and I actually saw improvements real soon in life, and i found a disgust for porn. i had been cold turkey for a couple months, but i'm super lonely, not that i can actually show this to anyone. the other day i ended up jerking off again, and i remember seeing this porn and feeling a gut wrenching feeling of "what am i doing with my life?" I still went ahead and watched it and I barely got hard, i didn't end up actually jerking off, and i didn't even end up watching the whole thing. I ended up closing it, and for a moment i remembered how shitty porn had made me feel before. so i stopped again. i know all of you know how it feels, but if you're like me and struggling, just remember that you're not giving up on yourself.