My wife always asks if I’ll stay by her side if she gets old and wrinkly.

I’ve been with her since she was 15, she’s 27 now. I asked her when she was 17 if she wanted to get married and start a family. She said yes, but when I told my parents they didn’t want us to get married, so we just moved in together instead. <br><br>I was on cloud 9, I didn’t expect her to be okay with it. She got pregnant very quickly, but then she had a miscarriage when the baby was about 3 months and she was devasted. She stopped leaving her room other than to shower, or eat, and she’d just cry in her room all day and night. She was like this for 6-7 months, then she finally came to me and told me she was ready to try again. I have no idea what changed in her mind, but it’s a great thing she did because she got pregnant again soon after. <br><br>She was only about 2-3 months pregnant though when she had her first panic attack, and I mean it was BAD. We were laying in bed, and she just suddenly starts breathing real heavy and starts shaking, and she looks at me dead in the eyes and screams and then she starts crying really bad. We were laying in bed so she was on top of me, crying, screaming, and shaking. I tried to calm her down but I had no idea how or what to do. It went on for hours, I remember it was from like midnight to 4:30 am because I remember watching the sun come up and her eventually falling asleep crying. <br><br>I didn’t really know what to do, but I did some research and it seemed like she was having a panic attack, so I got her a doctors appointment for the next day. They told us it was her stress from the miscarriage and that we should be able to manage it, I remember the doctor being very cold about it and almost didn’t care. I later learned it was because she had a history of depression, and it was likely coming back because she was expecting again. <br><br>Anyway, she continued having the panic attacks until she was about 6 months pregnant. Then when our daughter was born, the panic attacks stopped completely. That was 10 years ago, and she only had one panic attack since, it was right after I told her I was going to propose to her. It was really weird because I told her like, 3-4 days in advance, and she didn’t have one until right after I did it, I’m not even joking it was right to the minute after I did it. <br><br>It started with her wanting to get a haircut, so we went to the salon, then she wanted some Chinese food, so we went to the Chinese restaurant, then she wanted a milkshake, so we went to the milkshake place, and finally she said she wanted to get her nails done. So we go to the nail salon, and I remember she was talking about how she loved all these things we did and how much she missed it. Then out of nowhere she started talking about “what are we gonna do if I get wrinkles and my hair turns gray and your eyesight and hearing goes bad?” I told her I would always be there by her side, and then I pulled out the ring and got on one knee and said I wanted to marry her. I remember she looked really confused and then she just started crying. The next thing I knew she was hyperventilating and crying on the ground, screaming. <br><br>So I pick her up and take her to the car and get in and we screech out of the parking lot, and she looks at me and says we can’t get married. I was so confused I told her we already ordered the cake, I got the ring, and all that, she said she was scared I’ll leave her when she gets old and wrinkly, I told her that’s not gonna happen, she said she won’t risk it and I can’t make her. She told me that if I ever bring it up again then she’s leaving and taking our daughter with her. <br><br>She’s been scaring me a little lately, saying things like “we’re still young, but you know what they say, a woman’s best years are from 20-35,” and “I know you love me, but we need to accept reality.” I told her I’d never leave her, and I wouldn’t, but she always says that I won’t have a choice. Am I started to get a little worried that she’s right? Idk, but I’m gonna always love her. Always.