I thought I was ugly until I got sober

I thought I was ugly until I got sober. I just spent the last 10 years fighting for my life, but I finally sobered up and got my life together (not sober for long yet but working on it). I have been chatting with a lot of different women, and I’ve come to conclude that I’m not ugly, it’s just modern society is full of ugly people. My perception of beauty is different than most women, but I’m no longer convinced that I’m ugly. I don’t drink, do drugs, smoke, or go to bars. I’m not a chad but I’m not ugly. My entire perception of beauty and relationships have changed for the better (and the worse).