I hope I'm not making a huge mistake.

Hello! I know there have been more than a few stories on this chamber of men getting reject by women. I guess this is my turn. I'm a more average-sized woman. I don't feel good about myself. I'm going to see a doctor and get on top of it. I never gained weight but more than 20 pounds. However, I've lost around 100 pounds since the beginning of 2024. I'm still significantly overweight. I feel like absolute garbage. I have no energy, I get winded from walking to my own car in the parking lot at work. I was in a relationship with a woman named Audrey. She was very sweet and I loved her so very much. I thought she loved me but it turns out she was planning to leave me all along. She told me she wasn't attracted to me and I was hurting her by not taking care of myself. I would like to say I didn't let this hurt me but it did. I feel absolute garbage. I've been hanging out with a woman named Sarah. She's been nothing but kind and understanding. I think she might be into me as I am her. That being said, I'm Fat. Like *really* fat. I haven't weighed myself in months but I'm at least 300 pounds. She's an athletic build and I would guess was around 130 pounds. I know it sounds like I'm excusing myself for being lazy but I have been having a lot of issues. I'm finally going to go see a doctor. I think there's something wrong with my Thyroid. I've simply *felt* like garbage for the last two years, even when I was at my thinnest. I feel like this has caused me to gain so much weight. I'm not asking for sympathy. I'm just trying to show I'm not simply lazy. I want to get healthy because I want to feel good and have all the energy I had when I was younger. I've made plans with Sarah to go out on a few dates. I'm just worried she won't find me attractive because I'm so fat. I just hope I'm making the right decision. I don't want to be hurt again. I'm just going to hope for the best.