Does anyone else feel desperate and hopeless?

I get by, I pay the bills, I eat, I have a place to stay, I have a mediocre job, I don't starve. I am middle class.<br><br>But the pressure I feel is immense. Every day is like this never-ending, suffocating weight of desperation. The desire to break free and go crazy is constantly there. To just get up and change my life. To just live more, hate less, love more, share more, give more. To just live more fully.<br><br>But I don't. And I'm scared. I'm scared of making a mistake, I'm scared of running out of money, I'm scared of being alone, I'm scared of making the wrong move, I'm scared to fail. No, scratch that, I'm scared of breaking the system. I'm scared to live outside the rules. I'm scared to be alone. I'm scared to be me.<br><br>I'm scared that no matter how hard I save, no matter how hard I work, I'll never have a real safety net. I'll never have a real home, a real family, a real life. And because of that, I must always work to survive, and never live to thrive.<br><br>I'm scared of this system of life. I'm scared of breaking the rules. I'm scared of living. I'm scared of dying. I'm scared of the pain. I'm scared of the struggle. I'm scared of the suffering.<br><br>I want to live. I want to thrive. I want to share. I want to love. I want to be free. I want to be me. I want to live without fear of not having enough. I want to live without fear of being alone. I want to live without fear of living. I want to live without fear of dying.<br><br>But the system I live in doesn't allow this. The system says I must work to live. The system says I must work to survive. The system says I must fit in to be worthy, I must be normal to be accepted, I must be like everyone else to be liked.<br><br>But I'm lonely. I'm scared. I'm desperate. I'm hopeless. I see no way out. I don't know how to escape. I don't know how to live. I don't know how to thrive.<br><br>I want a way out. I want to change the system. I want to make a difference. I want to live a better life. I want to live a life of freedom, of love, of sharing, of giving, of kindness, of compassion, of empathy, of humanity.<br><br>But I don't know where to start. I feel lost. I feel scared. I feel desperate. I feel hopeless.<br><br>I was thinking about how I can escape this. Escape this constant pressure of bills and work. I thought about how I can live without this burden of needing to survive, of needing to work to live. And I realized I can't. I realized I can't escape. I realized I'm trapped.<br><br>And then I thought about how I can change this. I thought about how I can change this system of life that keeps me trapped. And I realized I can't. I realized I'm powerless. I realized I'm alone.<br><br>And then I thought about how everyone else is in the same situation. Everyone else has bills, everyone else has work, everyone else is trapped. Everyone else is scared, everyone else is desperate, everyone else is hopeless. Everyone else is trapped.<br><br>And I thought, this is not how it should be. This is not how life should be lived. This is not how humans should live. This is not how people should be treated. This is not how we should be. This is not life. This is not living. This is not humanity. This is not survival. This is slavery. This is selfishness. This is greed. This is suffering. This is pain. This is not life.<br><br>And so I thought, what can I do to change this? What can I do to help? What can I do to make a difference? What can I do to create a better life, a better system, a better world? What can I do to help humanity, to help humans, to help people live better, to help people live more, to help people live freely?<br><br>And I realized, the only thing I can do is share. Share my thoughts, share my feelings, share my desires, share my hopes, share my dreams. Share my life, share my love, share my humanity. Share my freedom, share my kindness, share my compassion, share my empathy.<br><br>This is all I can do. This is all I can give. This is all I can share. And so I share. I share my life, I share my love, I share my humanity. I share my freedom, I share my kindness, I share my compassion, I share my empathy. I share my thoughts, I share my feelings, I share my desires, I share my hopes, I share my dreams.<br><br>This is all I can do. This is all I can give. This is all I can share. And so I share. I share my humanity, I share my love, I share my life. I share my freedom, I share my kindness, I share my compassion, I share my empathy. I share my thoughts, I share my feelings, I share my desires, I share my hopes, I share my dreams.<br><br>&#x200B;