At the end of the day, it’s my fault I’m a loser

I’m not victim of system. I’m not victim of upbringing. I’m not victim of any sort of oppression. No, fuck that. I’m victim of myself. Every goddamn day I fail. <br><br>Today was the day I woke up at 7am. It’s 3am the next day. I’ve done nothing positive in my life. I’ve only made it worse. I’ve gained weight, drank soda, sugar and booze. I smoked weed and cigarettes. All instead of working on my future. All instead of working on myself. <br><br>I’m a victim of myself. Nobody else. <br><br>Today was the day I was gonna wake up at 7am and start working on my future. But I’ve worked on it for 1 hour. 1 fucking hour out of 20 hours I’ve been awake. <br><br>I’m 24. I have no degree. No gf. No nothing. I have a dead end job with no future. But I’m still smoking weed and drinking booze. <br><br>I’m not depressed. I’m not anxious. I’m just lazy as fuck. I don’t even consume porn. I just play video games and waste time. <br><br>Fuck I’m angry with myself. I’ve lost count how many times I’ve failed. <br><br>I don’t need to change the system. I don’t need to change how people view me. I don’t need to change anything but myself. I just need to do it. It’s my fault. <br><br>Why do people say it’s okay to fail? It’s not fucking okay to fail. It’s not okay to be a fucking loser. <br><br>Edit: holy fuck guys, I sipped from a six pack of budweiser while you dudes were upvoting my post lmao.