So close to just letting go

I feel like I should be back to normal in my life after over a year now. I put so much of my life on hold during my divorce and my means of taking care of myself. Emotionally, I feel like I'm a complete mess and I can't cope with anything at all. All I want to do is drive into the woods and off myself. I honestly can't imagine ever dating again, I hate most people, and I am so tired. I'm just so tired. I don't want to feel this way anymore.<br><br>I know there's professional help but I just don't trust anyone to be honest with me.