My son is growing up.

I know it sounds weird posting on a chamber like this, but I'm not sure where else to go. And why not? Before anyone says it, I'll be honest, yes I'm a lesbian and yes I've been sexually involved with my son. I don't care if people judge me, or call me a monster. I really don't. I know all of you do too. That's why you're here after all. And I've never been someone to apologize for being myself. <br><br>However I am his mother. And I have to be concerned for his well-being. I can't help that. It's just how it is. Even though I'm no longer sexually attracted to my son, that doesn't change the fact that I am his mother. And I will always be his mother. <br><br>So I'm asking you for your genuine advice here, not just your lustful and inappropriate advice. I'm not sure what to do, because I know that this is wrong and I know that he's no longer "mine". I'm not going to lie though, it hurts and I am jealous.<br><br>So what do I do? I don't want to ruin a relationship with my son because I can't handle the fact that he's growing up.