I had a bit of a meltdown yesterday and I feel bad about it

So yesterday I was driving to the library. Everything was fine until a car turned into the store that was in front of me. I have to admit I do get very worked up very easily about stupid little things like this. I was whining in my car and calling the person that turned into that store a dumb bitch. I know that this makes me seem like a terrible person and I  do not condone this sort of behavior.<br><br>I know that I have a tendency to be a bitch and that this is not like me to be so worked up and angry about stupid stuff. I have thousands of things to be angry about in this world. People that are less fortunate than me, homeless, starving, people with cancer, sick children, endangered animals, climate change. Women's rights, Black Lives Matter, domestic violence, child abuse, rape culture. I don't know why I have such a hard time and I feel like everything is about me and I have a hard time seeing it any other way.<br><br>I want to have less meltdowns and I want to be better about seeing other people's perspectives. I don't want to be a bitch.  I want to have a good heart and feel bad when other people are suffering. I want to feel bad when I see a dead animal. I want to be an activist. I want to volunteer. I want to help people. I want to be better.