I just want to shit on the floor and cry and scream but I'm doing my best to stay alive.

Title says it all. I'm trying to seek out positive women but its literally not working.<br><br>I'm tired of being called a woman hater when I'm afraid of getting hurt because I'm tired of being let down. shit man its hard to shit. and no one will understand but its literally not right to be called misogynistic because I choose to be cautious when talking to women. <br><br>I literally have no idea where to go anymore. I've been emotionally abusing myself for the past 3 months and I just want someone to hug me and comfort me because I feel like I just want to seek out the comfort of any guy I meet, but then I'm just going to get shit on all over again. shit man its hard and I'm just tired.<br><br> Women its your turn, show me that there is still hope.