i'm really jealous when couples come in the restaurant

i'm really jealous when couples come to the restaurant i work at and they get to sit there, eat and talk and live and be together. i really hate couples. i don't like them. i don't even like seeing the smile of my coworker who is in a relationship. it makes me angry. i don't even think the guy is hot but they are so happy together and it just makes me pure jealousy. it's getting to the point i don't even want to do my job and i have to drag myself to get up and go to work in the morning because all these couples make me feel even uglier. i put on makeup and do my hair but people don't even notice me. i don't want to be noticed as everyone else or just another girl. i want to be noticed as someone important. i want to be important to someone and mean everything to him and complete their life. i want to be someone's soulmate and someone's best friend. i feel like i can never do that. when i see these couples i feel like even less of a human. i don't even feel like a person. i feel like an object. a bump in the road. a cloud in the sky. i feel like i don't exist when i see couples.<br><br>**edit**: thanks for all the responses, i don't see them as enemies and i didn't think that. it's hard when couples come in all the time and you feel like you will never be able to be someone's best friend or soulmate and have their love. it's a harsh thing to say and i don't actually think they are my enemies, it's just a harsh thing to deal with.