[Update] I love my wife, but her lack of effort has hurt my feelings and I don't know what to do

Well, I came to my senses. I was a fucking idiot. I looked at myself in the mirror and said what the fuck is wrong with me? I'd better get to work right now. I told my wife we needed to talk, and I just dropped it all. Now I don't know if I should've done that or not, but I said, "I'm glad your home, but I'm going to be honest and I might just blow it by telling you this, but I've always found you incredibly sexy no matter what size you are. I've never thought you were any less beautiful for gaining weight and I always felt you were amazing, and I don't know why that isn't enough. I want to be with you forever, and you're the only woman for me, but I feel as if I'm not enough to make you happy. I've been so confused as to why you wouldn't want to share intimate moments with me anymore."<br><br>She looked at me as if I had just punched her in the face. I may have fucked up by telling her that. I may have made it worse. I may have pushed her further away from me. I may have put the final nail in the coffin of my marriage.<br><br>She looked at me, and she told me I was an idiot. She said she'd done everything she could to make me happy, and she didn't know how much more of my relentless requests she could take. As I write this I'm realizing just how big of an idiot I was. I should've just kept my mouth shut. I should never have said anything. I think I should've just left the relationship and moved on. I think I've done irreparable damage.<br><br>She looked at me and asked me, "You know what it's like to be married to someone who never has sex with you? Do you know what that's like? Do you know what it's like to be married to someone and feel as if they don't want to touch you? I want nothing more than to be intimate with my wife, but I love and respect her and don't push her to do something she doesn't want to do. Do you know how many times I've asked for just a hug or a kiss, or intimate attention? Do you know how many times you've just ignored me and done whatever the fuck you wanted to do? You've made me feel like a dog that you can only call when you want food, but you'd rather have fast food than me."<br><br>Damn. I'm an idiot. I had no idea I made her feel this way. I don't know what to do. I'm in trouble and I know it. I hurt the woman I love and I don't know how to make it right. <br><br>I really wish she would've just communicated this to me openly. I have no idea if she'll ever be able to trust me again, and I wouldn't blame her if she never did. I think I might just be done after this. I hope I can do enough to make it right, but I have a feeling that I just can't.<br><br>Damn it.