1:1 ratio of Etizolam and LSD is the most disgusting and displeasing experience I’ve had in the past 10 years

I tried it during a very bad time in my life. I didn’t have any feet, living out of bin liners, lying in doorways and shit. If I thought things could get any worse, I was fucked in the shit. I always remembered a lad telling me to never end your own life, when you don’t know what’s waiting for you, he had a point. I had heard of this combo in the past. I’ve had my fair share with Etizolam but I never tried mixing it with anything, I always thought lsd was the devil’s drug. Never tried it and I’d rather die. <br><br>When I first took the drugs I was in a hypnotic state, I was in a dream like state. Nothing around me seemed real and I couldn’t see anything. I saw aliens and monsters and colours, I was on cloud 9. Nothing made sense, and the atmosphere around me was so positive. Then suddenly I fucked up and woke up from my dream. I had woken up and realised everything. I started to cry and I never cried. I always had a strong mindset, something was different. I knew I had nobody else to turn to. I had nobody to blame but myself. I knew I wasn’t in a good place. I had nobody to turn to. I had nobody to talk to.. I was alone. I don’t know how long I cried for. I was in a state of pure trauma. My mental health has never been in a bad place like that, I was unstable. Nothing made sense. <br><br>I knew I had a decision to make. I knew I had to go back to the streets. Go back to who I was. Turn back into a little prick. It was so hard, and I found myself in so many difficult situations. I had to fight back, the streets aren’t for everyone, it’s hard. You have to do what you have to do to survive. I did what I had to do, and it took a lot out of me. I don’t think I was the same person after that day. I was better, I was more stable. I look back on my past in regret, but I learn from it. I’ve had to fight my whole life, and it hasn’t been easy. I’m happy, I’m in a much better place. I’m not a different person, I’m not in a bad place anymore. I’m not alone. I’m just not the same person anymore.