I'm a nurse and so damn angry about all this

I'm a nurse and so damn angry about all this. I'm angry that I have to go to work, while you get to stay home. Angry that I get yelled at for not wearing a mask at Target, but I have to reuse mine at work for hours on end. Angry that I get called a damn hero, but in reality, I'm overworked, underpaid, and expendable. <br><br>We go to work with aches and pains and coughs and runny noses. We push through. We are expected to. It's ridiculous when we get called heroes, but have to fight tooth and nail to get PPE. <br><br>I'm fucking angry. I'm angry I'm expected to sacrifice my health, my time with my family, and my sanity. Angry that people still think it's fucking bullshit that we can't get into a damn restaurant or store without a mask, but I have to work 12 hour shifts in one. Angry that people still compare it to the fucking flu. I had the flu three years ago, and I was in bed for almost a week, not in the fucking ER or on a fucking ventilator. Angry that people won't listen to actual science and facts. Angry that people still think this is some fucking political bullshit. <br><br>But most of all, I'm angry that I am a healthcare worker. It's not some noble thing I chose to do because I like helping people. It's a fucking job, and I'm damn good at it. But I'm tired of being overworked, underpaid, and viewed as nothing more than a piece of disposable equipment. Tired of being called a hero. Tired of the abuse from patients, tired of the orders from superiors, and tired of being expected to do more and more and more, all while working fucking miracles on less and less and less. <br><br>I'm angry. I'm tired. And I just...want to go home.