Just had the most terrifying dream of my life.

So I woke up this morning and I was like okay with my day, doing some chores, thinking about how I’m actually determined to spend time with my best friends and go out for once. I’m 21 years old and I basically have no friends because I’ve struggled with anxiety, depression and addiction. <br><br>So I get home from doing some chores, cook some food and eat it. Then I take a glass of spring water and drink it. Then I fall asleep. I don’t know if I was dreaming for a few minutes or just straight went into REM but there I was. I’m at my desk, eating with a full stomach. I feel okay, nothing special. Then I stood up. And when I stood up I collapsed to the floor. Something was pushing me down to the floor. It was then I felt this really weird sensation, it was like something was kind of “pulling” me to a certain direction and I knew that “direction” was death. It was an eerie but weirdly familiar feeling, I felt no fear, no sadness, no confusion. I was then given a choice, I can either die or “fight”. “Fighting” basically meant I was going to be pushed down really hard and I would kind of be “digging” out of something like a stone when you’re a mole in Minecraft. It was really hard and I don’t know how long I was “digging” for, but at one point the thing that was “pulling” me to death stopped. And I don’t know how long I kept “digging” but I eventually died. <br><br>I felt this empty feeling like I was a robot which had just been unplugged, but I felt so normal and empty. Then I opened my eyes, and I saw my two really good childhood friends. One of the friends who was with me was the one I wanted to connect with the most. We were all in a room and I felt nothing but empty and like I had a mission. It was basically to spend all my money in one night and give it to random people of the streets. I didn’t know why but I felt like I knew what was happening. I spent all my money, given it to random people and some I gave to my friends. And then we got in a taxi, and we were just drinking in the typical taxi way. It was so fun. Then we got to the mall, I don’t know how much money I had left but I bought some clothes. The outfit they gave me was so sick and I felt so sick. And then they wanted to go to the bathroom. I told them I was gonna go look around and kind of “tour” around the mall. And then I got to an escalator, and as I took a step on it, I felt something was pulling me and I instantly woke up. I want to say I was in the afterlife but I don’t know. I really don’t know. I’m so scared right now. <br><br>I’ve been exploring the concept of simulated reality and I knew what was happening in the dream. Almost everything felt too real but I knew it was a simulation. <br><br>Edit: I would like to thank all of you for your comments, I definitely just got a little spooked out. I don’t know what really happened but I’m going to explore more of the spiritual side of life and kind of make an action plan of what I should do in life. It’s been really nice to hear some of your stories. Thank you really. <br><br>Final Edit: I would like to thank everyone once again for the support, with over 2k upvotes and 300 comments really. I kind of started to feel really weird and anxious about it, but then I watched some videos about the nature of reality and with my friends checking in on me constantly, I definitely feel better. With all the support you gave me, I decided to take it to the next level and create a whole action plan on what I’m gonna do to become a better person. Thank you really. <br><br>Final Final Edit: I would like to thank everyone once again for their support, as of today, I’ve started to go to the gym. I’ve started to kind of make an action plan already to rekindle with old friends, invest my money on something I enjoy, and connect with my family more. I’ve already kind of started to talk to my two closest friends and we’re planning to meet each other on Sunday. Thank you really.