My friend admitted to me that he’s addicted to porn and now l want to see it.

My(18) friend(19) and l have been friends for like 12 years and we’ve been friends since we were kids. We have been in the same class back in school and have been hanging out for years. I’m a girl in this case. We’ve been friends for years and everything was normal between us, all the way until now. We started occasionally hanging out l again and he’s been showing me photos of his girlfriend, who l like, have never met before. He’s really into her and talking about her a lot. I don’t have a problem with that. I was just walking outside and came to his house and he was home alone. We had some snack, laughed a lot and were both happy, everything was normal. I was getting ready to go home and he decided to tell me something. He told me that he’s addicted to porn for years, for like 6 years now. I never expected him to admit something like that to me and he’s not the type of person to do that. I was surprised, but it’s not like l haven’t seen it coming. I have been questioning myself for a while and l had a feeling about it. I don’t see it as a bad thing and it’s not something to be ashamed of, but he acted like it was. I’m not sure what to think now. He just told me like that and l was speechless. I didn’t know what to say and he didn’t tell me what to say either. I just said that everything is going to be fine. I left his house and started thinking. Now l really want to see his porn collection, but l don’t want to ruin our friendship. I’m not going to tell anyone about it, l can keep a secret really well and l already kept a lot of secrets for him. I’ve been thinking about it for days, but l don’t know how or if l should ask him about it at all. I’m l going to ruin our friendship by asking him about it?