The Blackpill is the most real thing in the world.

I was born with a condition that makes my ears protrude out quite a bit, I'm not skinny nor fat, but I'm a bit self aware of my body. But i was not the only one. All my family was extremely ugly and I inherited those genes. My dad cheated on my mother with my aunt and my mother cheated on my father with my uncle. I don't know which one is my real father, my whole childhood I was called a bastard and a freak, I'm a burden to my parents, they want me dead, I never talk to my parents because our relationship is messed up and I think its best we don't see each other, I have no contact with my aunt or uncle because they broke up my family, they don't want me near their kids, I'm the shame of the family. I have no friends, no gf, no nothing, I go to university and they all laugh at me, the only person that talked to me was a girl who was also ugly, we talked for a year, she was nice and all, the best thing that ever happened to me. I fell in love with her, she was the love of my life, I was going to spend the rest of my life with her, but I was wrong, she told me she was going to let me kiss her and touch her, but never have sex with me, I did it, and she dumped me after 3 days, she was my first and only kiss in my 20 years of life. When i was 8, a man would abuse me, it lasted for a year, I told my parents and they didn't believe me, they said I was lying and I wanted attention. At 15 i was diagnosed with a mental disorder that makes me hate everything, I hate myself, I hate everyone, I hate life, I want to blow my brains out. My life is a never ending misery. If you are born ugly, you're fucked, no one loves you, nobody cares about you, you're better off dead. But you know what? I'm not killing myself, I'm gonna live this garbage life, i'm gonna go through all the bullshit this life has to offer me, because i feel sorry for myself, i dont wanna die, i'm not gonna end this miserable life because it was meant to end like this, i'm just gonna be miserable and suffer until i die alone with no friends, no family, no love, no nothing.