I'm so done with dating.

I'm done. I'm just done. I'm exhausted.<br><br>Ever since I was a kid, I was told I wasn't good enough. I was too short. I was too big. I was too ugly. I would never find a girlfriend or wife. And I always believed it. I was always told the only girls I'd ever date were the ones nobody else would want. And the only women that were attracted to me were older, chubby married women who didn't care about what I looked like.<br><br>Eventually when I came to this chamber, I was amazed I wasn't alone. There were people who appreciated curves and had a deep profound appreciation for them. There were also guys who didn't care about my weight. I thought maybe I had found a place that I could belong, where my self-esteem and dignity could heal.<br><br>But I was wrong.<br><br>Every woman I've ever asked out, tried to date, or implored to be with me has rejected me. Every woman has told me they're out of my league, there's no chance we could ever date, and I'm just too ugly. Hell, even some of the women on chambers who are attracted to me have made fun of me for being overweight, having acne, and being very insecure.<br><br>I don't want to believe it, but it seems like everything my dad and some of my friends said about me when I was younger is true. I'm not good enough. I'm ugly. I'll die alone. I'll never have a woman love me for who I am. I'll never find my queen. I'll never be happy.<br><br>I just want a woman to love me. I want a woman to hold me in her arms. I want a woman to kiss me. I want a woman to hug me. I want a woman to laugh at all my stupid jokes. I want a woman to appreciate me for who I am. But that seems like a pipe dream. That's something that just won't happen.<br><br>I've literally put myself out there countless times. I've tried to be charming. I've tried to be funny. I've tried to be the nicest guy I possibly can. But nobody likes me. Nobody wants me. Everyone I've asked out has rejected me. I guess that's just who I am. I'm just not good enough. Nobody will love me. Nobody will want me.<br><br>I'm tired. I'm tired of rejection. I'm tired of being told I'm ugly. I'm tired of all the things I've done wrong. I'm tired of all the chances I've blown. I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of going outside and trying to make friends. I'm just tired. Tired of everything. Tired of all the failures and all the rejections.<br><br>I just wish I could meet a woman who could love me. I just wish I could meet a woman who would appreciate me. I just wish I could meet a woman who would want to date me. I just wish I could find a woman who would want to be my girlfriend. I just wish so many things, but none of those things will ever happen. Hell, I've even considered getting plastic surgery at this point. I'm not even joking. I'm that exhausted and done with it all.<br><br>Eventually I can just walk away from it all. I can just say screw it all and forget about it. I can forget about all my problems. I can forget all my catastrophes. I can just forget about all my self-esteem issues and just move on with my life. Forget about the world and just leave it all behind. Hell, I think that's what I'll do. I'll just leave it all behind and forget about it.<br><br>I'm done.