I miss her so much

There was girl I used to work with. We dated for several years until we went our separate ways. I found out she had committed suicide and I am mourning her so hard. I never really loved anyone like that again. I had a lot of fun with her. I feel like I won't find that type of love again. I have no idea why she took her life. She was so beautiful and I know deep in my heart she was not in a good place when she was with me but I could not fix her. I do not understand and I never will. I never felt anyone love me the way she did. I wish she was here so I can hold her and kiss her face one more time. She was the love of my life. I miss her so much.