My husband found out and he left. I won’t let it happen again.

Our affair was not the first time we were intimate. I let myself get drunk at my wedding reception and ended up sleeping with my brother in a parked car for a few hours. I was still a virgin at the time and my now ex husband was waiting for me inside. When I woke up I really didn’t think much of it and went home. I didn’t even try to remove the smell of sex from myself and my husband didn’t even notice. <br><br>Years went by and my marriage felt empty and unfulfilling. I felt like I was being punished for something I didn’t do and I wanted excitement and love. I saw my brother at a family get together and I was so excited. I couldn’t stop thinking of him. We made eye contact a few times and I could feel a spark. My brother did the same and it fueled the fire in me. I knew I needed him again. <br><br>I went on an online dating app and used my real name. It didn’t take long for us to connect and start talking. We met at a hotel and it was like the first time again. I felt so excited and then guilty. <br><br>My husband started to get suspicious so we had to come up with more clever ways to meet. We were very careful but we got caught. My husband confronted me about it and left because I told him I loved my brother and hated my life with him. <br><br>I wish I would have made different decisions but now I can’t go back and change it. I was given the boot from my family and I don’t care. I have my brother now and he’s all I’ve ever wanted. My brother is going to buy us a new house soon and we’re going to move away and start over. I can’t wait to be alone with him and start our new chapter.