I am in love with a woman I never met.

I’ve always been a chubby chaser. My first love was a woman with long dark hair and a bigger body. I saw her during my high school years in my small Texas town. She was the niece of my dads boss at work. She and her sisters would often come into where I worked and I would always smile and fantasize about. <br><br>When I was 20, I joined to social media and it was easy to stalk. Nobody cares if they have 500+ friends and with the way you make connections nowadays it wasn’t hard if you tried to find people. I wasn’t single at the time, but I realized she was living back in town again. I stalked her profile with curiosity and I knew if I was ever single again, I’d try to find a way to get her attention. <br><br>After 4 years of being single, I saw she was suddenly back in town. She had a ring on her finger. It would have sucked if she wasn’t married, but she was happily engaged. I watched her profile eagerly, she posted about her new home and I realized it was across the street from me. I was able to see her and her family when they moved in. I never made my presence known. <br><br>I was in love with her, but I wasn’t in love with her. I missed the idea of the school girl crush. I loved her smile, but I don’t know her laugh. I loved the way she smelled like fresh cut grass, but I don’t know her favorite flower. <br><br>She moved away again after marriage and I never heard of her. She did have animals and I’d imagine when she’d post videos of her pets that I heard her laugh. I didn’t if it was real or in my head. <br><br>I’ve always loved chubby women, but I had this infatuation with her. When I started dating I looked for women with green eyes and dark hair. I never found another woman who looked like her, but I always looked. <br><br>Now I’ve finally found my way to Reddit. I browse some chambers and I came across a post of the woman I can’t forget with someone wearing a ring and about to propose. It was a post of the proposal video and at the end of the video he said he proposed in the same place he met her. I can’t confirm because I’m too nervous to watch. <br><br>Why am I sharing this? What is my point? I don’t know. Just sharing.