The women of r/conservative have no idea I'm here, (I'm a woman and my family would call me a "conservative") and it's wild.

I've been reading r/conservative for about a year now, and I think the women there are the saddest and most brainwashed demographic I've ever seen. They're proud of being (traditional) housewives, they love the color pink, they have no problem with the idea that they weren't (and aren't) allowed to balance work and parenting like men are allowed to do, they love knitting and crocheting and baking. They're happy for each other when they announce their pregnancies, (most of the time) they're happy for each other when they announce their engagements/marriages. They're also very proud of their male partners for providing for their families. It's unsettling to see the amount of women that truly are satisfied with traditional gender roles, and how proud they are of being women, as long as they are doing what women are "supposed to do". <br>For context I'm 21, and my mom raised me the same way she was raised. She's conservative and a Christian and was told she had to learn to knit, sew, crochet, bake and cook, and that she (along with her sisters and cousins) were expected to find a good man to marry and raise a family. My family is devoutly Christian and is very conservative, and they went along with the whole traditional roles idea. <br>That's how I was also raised, and as I got older I realized that I was not allowed to do what my brother was allowed to do, (ofc exceptions apply, but I was expected to help my mom with housework and my brother was allowed to play with his friends or go to school and play sports) and I had to study less because supposedly school would do nothing for me in real life, and it was better to learn how to bake and cook. They thought it was important for me to learn the "womanly arts" (that's what my family called it). Sometimes I think it's insane that they think this, but I was also raised like this and it's what I know, and they say they're doing it for my own good. <br>What I mean is that the women on r/conservative could have been me, and that thought is unthinkable to me. I'm not that kind of person, but at the same time, I sometimes think I am. It's like I have multiple personalities, and I don't know who I am and what I want anymore.<br><br>Edit to add (because I've been receiving personal messages asking for permission to post this on other subs and websites): Please do not repost this anywhere, I'd prefer if you didn't. If you want to discuss this elsewhere, please don't use direct quotes or anything you think would identify me. This is the only place I've posted this, so if you see this elsewhere, you'll know who did it. Also, please do not message me asking questions about my family or myself, I won't be answering anything.