My husband told another woman that he loved her…..

My husband is a great guy, puts his family first. <br><br>Until a few months ago I would have said that he was almost too perfect. <br><br>I know it sounds weird, but as a woman, when your husband makes you feel like you’re the only thing on this earth, it can get a little suffocating. <br><br>I love him. <br><br>But I want to go for coffee with my girlfriends without him texting to check in. I want to go for a hike and not find his car in the parking lot when I get there. To go to Target and not be disappointed cause I knew he’d already be there shopping when I got off work. <br><br>I get it. He loves me. That’s great. <br><br>But I need a little bit of space to breathe. <br><br>So imagine my surprise when he started coming home from work an hour or two later than usual every day. Imagine my utter shock when he went to the gym instead of following me on our usual walks. <br><br>At first, I thought he was just getting tired of me. That he needed some space. <br><br>I was a little bummed at first, but the truth is that it was kind of a relief. <br><br>That was until I found his phone unlocked on the coffee table with a text from his best friend that said “You ok? You haven’t answered my texts in weeks”. <br><br>I know it’s wrong, but I looked through his texts. I had never felt so humiliated, degraded or betrayed in my life as when I realized that my husband was in a full blown affair. <br><br>When he came through the door, I just handed him the phone with the texts pulled up. <br><br>I told him to go, that I wanted a divorce. <br><br>When he realized I’d found out, he just doubled down on the lies. He wasn’t sleeping with her, he said. They were just friends, he said. I was overreacting, he said. <br><br>I didn’t even bother fighting. If he needed to lie that bad, I just let him. <br><br>The next morning, I woke up to him snoring like a freight train. <br><br>Everything I owned was already packed up and in the back of my SUV. <br><br>I called our mutual friend who owned a realty company and asked her to meet me at our house. <br><br>While my husband slept, I got all of the papers ready to sign the house over to him. It was in his name anyway. <br><br>He didn’t even wake up as I left the house. <br><br>I called my mom as I was driving away and asked her to pick up the kids from school. I told her what happened, and she was very supportive and said that I needed some time to myself. <br><br>When she picked up the kids later that day, she told him that I was sick and staying with my girlfriend for the week. <br><br>She suggested he stay with his mom. She packed his bags when she left and I haven’t seen him since. <br><br>It’s been almost three months now. <br><br>I’m living with my girlfriend, and the kids are with my parents. <br><br>I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting the last few months, and the truth is that I’m just not that upset about it. <br><br>I mean, it hurts. I feel betrayed. I feel so humiliated that he was able to lie to me for so long and I had no idea. <br><br>But when I think back on our marriage together, I realize that I’m not sad that it’s over. <br><br>I’m sad that my kids are losing their family. I’m sad that I’m starting over at 40 years old. I’m sad that I’ll never have that fairy tale. <br><br>But I just don’t feel that sad about the divorce. <br><br>It feels like a relief, and that’s hard to admit. <br><br>I’m a little sad that I’ll never have a husband again. I wanted one for forever. <br><br>But the truth is that I’m kinda okay without one. <br><br>I know this is all over now. Irreconcilable differences is what I’ll put on the papers. <br><br>It’s not because of the cheating. <br><br>It’s because we just stopped loving each other. <br><br>And I’m okay with that. <br><br>I know this post is gonna get a lot of hate. That I should be angry, that I’m too calm, that I’m better off without him, that I should get my revenge. <br><br>But the truth is that it’s just over now. <br><br>We both fucked up. <br><br>Now we both need to move on.<br><br>That’s it.