I'm Lithuanian and I hate Lithuania, but I don't want it to be abolished

I don't want Lithuania to be abolished. However, I hate it. As a matter of fact, I hate Lithuanians and I hate Lithuanian culture. The reason is very simple: I've been sexually harassed by my own twin brother. He was even arrested when I was a teenager. I've never spoken to him again, and I'm not interested in hearing anything about him.<br><br>This was very hard for me to overcome, but it has made me more aware of the deep-rooted problems in Lithuanian society. I've been looked down upon by other Lithuanians for complaining about the awful state of my life. I've been blamed for all of the problems in my life. I've been accused of lying about my problems.<br><br>I don't know why Lithuanians are generally so mean. But I know that it hurts me to death. I've always felt hated and discriminated against in Lithuania. I've never felt at home. It's a place that I've always been forced to live in. After moving to the UK in 2009, I finally felt a true sense of being at home. I've never felt more welcome and more safe.<br><br>This was a reaction to my last post. Thank you for so many awards and comments. It means a lot to me. I just wanted to explain how I feel.