My mom kept trying to fuck me, and I wish she was my first.

Okay, so this is not the first time that my mom has tried to fuck me, but yes it is the first time I noticed her trying. For the past 6 months, my mom has been trying to fuck me, but I just thought she was being clingy. Part of me wanted her to fuck me, but I knew it was wrong. So I slept on the couch, but she tried to fuck me there too. She would crawl on top of me, and hold my wrists. I tried to stop her, but she was just too strong. I tried to tell my dad, but he just laughed and said "she never learned how to be alone". So I started to lock myself in my room, but she would bang on the door for hours. I was just so tired one night and I finally opened the door, and she almost turns into a monkey, and starts ripping my clothes off. I was so scared, so I ran to the bathroom and locked the door. <br><br>I was so scared because I knew she would eventually break down the door so I just opened it again, and she was almost expecting me because she immediately started ripping my clothes off, and at that point I just backed off and realized I wasn't gonna stop her, so I just let her fuck me. I have to admit it was amazing, but I feel so guilty. I still do in fact, but I just can't help but have sex with her all the time. I know its wrong, but fuck it I'm gonna keep fucking her.<br><br>Edit: I'm sorry for not clarifying I'm 18 and my mom is 40.