I'm panicking because I have to go to the grocery store.

I don't like the idea of being in a crowded store, pandemic and all, but I have to go grocery shopping today. <br><br>I resent having to go grocery shopping. I'm sick to death of this terrible pandemic and I resent having to put my health at risk (I have multiple co-morbidities) just to get basic necessities. <br><br>I resent the fact that when I walk into the store, I will see people without masks and others who are wearing their masks wrong. <br><br>I resent having to fight to get the things I need. The shelves are almost bare. I resent having to stand 6 feet away from people I don't know. <br><br>I resent having to do self-checkout because there are only 2 cashiers and 1 is bagging her own groceries. <br><br>I resent having to put my groceries in my own bags because some states won't allow reusable bags. <br><br>I resent having to put my reusable bags in plastic bags to protect them from the virus.<br><br>I resent panhandlers and the homeless who approach me as I'm walking to my car. They don't take social distancing seriously and I'm not comfortable giving them money. <br><br>I resent the fact that I'm a democrat who has to live in a small town in the south. If I lived in a bigger city, I would feel more comfortable going to the grocery store. <br><br>I resent the fact that I don't live in Europe where they have free healthcare. If I get sick, I stand to lose my home and my health. <br><br>I resent the fact that millions of Americans get a check in the mail that won't cover a month's worth of bills, especially rent/mortgage. I resent the fact that self-employed and freelancers won't get stimulus checks until May. I resent the fact that businesses get more stimulus money than individuals. <br><br>I resent the fact that the government won't force corporations to manufacture medical supplies and PPE. I resent the fact that corporations are selling PPE to the highest bidder. I resent the fact that corporations are selling PPE to other countries. I resent the fact that PPE has been seized from private citizens. <br><br>I resent the fact that the government is still arresting people for marijuana. I resent the fact that millions of people are incarcerated for victimless crimes. I resent the fact that these prisoners don't have access to PPE. <br><br>I resent the fact that the government is still holding children in cages at the border. I resent the fact that these children don't have access to PPE. <br><br>I resent the fact that I have to pay strict attention to the news and stay on top of the latest statistics and updates. <br><br>I resent the fact that so many people in positions of power are unqualified and incompetent. <br><br>I resent the fact that I'm not qualified or mature enough to help fight this pandemic. <br><br>I resent the fact that I'm going to have to pay to replace my car battery because it died after sitting idle for a few weeks. <br><br>I resent the fact that I have to pay to replace my glasses because I haven't been able to go see an eye doctor or optometrist. <br><br>I resent the fact that I can't get my car washed. <br><br>I resent the fact that I have to do all of my own cooking. <br><br>I resent the fact that I can't get a haircut. <br><br>I resent the fact that my supply of disposable contact lenses is running low. <br><br>I resent the fact that I have to pay for all of this shit and I haven't had any income in weeks. I resent the fact that my stimulus check won't cover all of my bills. <br><br>I resent the fact that I had to spend my last $300 on a piece of shit car repair just so I could drive to the grocery store. <br><br>I resent the fact that I have to drive my piece of shit car to the grocery store. I resent the fact that I have to pay for gas. <br><br>I resent the fact that I have to give my car a bath when I get home. <br><br>I resent the fact that I'm going to have to spend weeks before I get my stimulus check. <br><br>I resent the fact that I get sick when I'm under a lot of stress and I'm under a lot of stress right now. <br><br>I resent the fact that I have to worry about money. Everyone should get stimulus money AND everyone should get hazard pay. <br><br>I resent the fact that republicans are trying to push the blame onto the media, China, Obama, and the victims of the pandemic. <br><br>I resent republicans who claim God is in charge and this is a divine punishment. <br><br>I resent the fact that my step-dad is so self-centered and narcissistic. He refuses to social distance and stay home. <br><br>I resent the fact that my mom and I have to protect ourselves from him. <br><br>I resent the fact that my mom is a self-employed artist and she won't get her stimulus money until May. <br><br>I resent the fact that I have to accept the reality of this situation. <br><br>I resent the fact that I'm still crying as I write this. I resent the fact that I'm so emotionally unstable. I resent the fact that therapy isn't covered by insurance. <br><br>I resent the fact that I have to go grocery shopping.