I'm a man and my wife constantly cheats on me. I'm sick of it

I've read allot of stories here about cheating spouses. And I'm so glad I've found this community. It's rare to hear about the wife cheating so allot on here. I'm sorry I've gotta write this out but I really need to vent. I'm a husband of 10 years and I'm really just so done with it all. I have a 7 year old son and I just feel like I'm loosing it all. <br><br>My wife and I went to college together. She's always been very attractive. And I really was just head over heels for her. I knew I wanted to marry her. I went through a lot of heartbreak before my wife. So I thought she was "the one." I'm not really sure how I got so blind. But I really was. <br><br>My wife has cheated on me since day one. I found out when we were together for like 2 months I think. And I just turned a blind eye. I knew it wasn't right but I really didn't care. I was young and dumb. <br><br>We got married and it continued. She told me she was sorry and would never do it again. So I gave her a second chance. <br><br>After my son was born. I found out she was with a guy from work. I was heartbroken. But I felt like I couldn't leave. She was the mother of my child now. I just couldn't do it. <br><br>That's when all of allot changed for me. I started having allot of depression and anger. I was in such a dark place. I really regret it. But I really was on the brink of killing myself. <br><br>I went to therapy to get better. Because I really was just so done with life. I really hated myself. <br><br>Well therapy really did help. I'm not really sure when I just snapped but allot did change for me. I really was more focused on my son than my wife. I started to see allot of things that I really didn't see before. <br><br>My wife had allot of fetishes that I just let happen. I was a bit of a cuck. I didn't really think about it allot. But she really enjoyed that allot. She would ask me if she could sleep with other men. So she could tell me about it. I would have to act like a cuck husband. And let her have her way. <br><br>She really loved it. She would ask me constantly. I started to see how messed up it was. I mean I didn't really feel like her husband anymore. I was just like a weird fetish to her. <br><br>She was sleeping with other men. And she wanted to tell me about it. I really regret it. But I just went along with it. <br><br>I really lost allot of weight. And started to get really in shape. I started to get allot of attention from other women. And I really never knew allot of women wanted me. My wife was like a center of attention. And I always felt like her shadow. <br><br>I started to realize I was allot better than I thought. I really just started to get some confidence back. And really look at my life. <br><br>That's when I found out she was with 2 of my friends. And it just really hit me like a brick wall. I confronted her about it. And she really didn't seem like she cared. She really didn't have any remorse for it. <br><br>I told her I wanted a divorce. And she was like ok. It really just seemed so simple. But it wasn't. <br><br>We got into a big fight about the money. She really wanted as much as she could get. I was able to keep the house. But she was able to get the kids. I was really upset about that. But she was able to lie about me. And get full custody. I was able to get visitation. But it was hard. <br><br>I just really regret it. But I moved on. I started to date other women. And really find confidence in myself. I really just stopped worrying so much about my wife. And really just started to live for myself. <br><br>I was able to see my son on the weekends. And I really just focused on him. I started to realize that was my real problem. My son was the only thing keeping me with my wife. <br><br>Now I still see my son. And really just enjoy life without my wife. She really was like a weight holding me back. And I'm just happy to be without her.