UPDATE: My (25f) boyfriend (27m) has lost so much weight, it's like his body is just eating itself.

So, the first time it was a muscle-wasting disease, it just came on overnight. The doctors at the time just said his muscles weren't getting the right signals from his brain so he went and did some physical therapy for it and he slowly started regaining muscle mass and he was fine after that. <br><br>It started happening again the beginning of this year, but he was also very sick with the flu and I said stay home! Because he was only out of bed for a couple of minutes at a time each day. I never suspected anything because he had so much fluid retention, and he wasn't in any shape to do anything dangerous. He even took a COVID test and it showed positive so I never thought anything of it. <br><br>After all that cleared up and he still had so much trouble walking, I told him he was going back to the doctor, and he just spent all his time and money almost dying and he didn't want to go through it again so I said I was going, with or without him. But we both went.<br><br>They did a lot of tests and I'm so stupid for not catching it but he was addicting himself to heroin. I read after the fact that all the symptoms of the flu he had were also symptoms of heroin withdrawal and I just threw it all on COVID.<br><br>The doctor told him if he didn't go into treatment he'd be dead in a month and he just started crying and apologized and said he was going to get help and I just left. I never even looked back at him. I called my cousin and she came to pick me up and I've been staying with her ever since. <br><br>It's only been 6 or so weeks so I still don't even know how to feel about everything. I'm still trying to wrap my head around everything. I never thought I'd catch him doing something like that but I just feel so betrayed that I could miss that. I'm so stupid and I just want to go back in time and look closer. I don't know. <br><br>Anyway, since I haven't talked to him in weeks one guy I work with, his sister knows my ex-boyfriend's mom and said they're all shocked that I left him.<br><br>He's not a victim here, he did this to himself. I don't care that he is sick, he knew what he was doing the first time he took it. I'm just so mad and I'm just starting to realize how much he manipulated me for so long. <br><br>Also I'll add that he doesn't know where I am. I have my dad's number blocked and I only talk to my cousin who he doesn't know. So he has no way of contacting me, and he's not allowed where I work.