I feel like I'm being gaslighted by my husband over my weight.

I am overweight. I know this. I'm so glad I started therapy because it has been incredibly helpful so far. My husband told me tonight that he doesn't care about my weight. I asked him why the hell he keeps telling me to lose weight if he doesn't care about my weight. He said he is only telling me to lose weight because of my health. I asked him if he could name a single time he said anything about losing weight that was rooted in concern for my health. He got quiet and I just shook my head. <br><br>I'm starting to notice all of these microaggressions on his part. I feel like he is trying to gaslight me into believing he t doesn't care about my weight. He just tells me he cares about my health. He doesn't make me feel unattractive, he just tells me to lose weight. I asked him if he wanted me to look different. He said no. I asked him why he keeps t telling me to lose weight. He just repeated that he wants me to be healthy. I told him I am going to start recording him when he says stuff like that so he stops trying to gaslight me. He told me no because I will only use it against him and twist his words. <br><br>I am so conflicted. I believe he doesn't want me to be heavier than me because he doesn't like fat people. But he keeps trying to convince me he is only worried about my health. I'm not stupid. I know I need to lose weight for my health and I have been trying. But I believe he is lying and he would be happier if I were skinny. I just wish he would be upfront with me instead of this back and forth where he denies he cares about my weight but then tells me to lose weight.